Saturday, 31 August 2013

growing old

we had a workshop the other day, topic of the day was "Presentation Skills".
the lecturer giving the presentation was Ms Esther, she's really fun going and open minded. haha and honestly I see a lot of me in her, especially the "OMG"s and "ooh nice butt". hahah!! YES!! she is damn funny and fun.

okay so at the end of the session people were selected at random and they were to do impromptu presentations! *yikes* and yes I was one of the chosen. pfft

so one of the topic was "would men marry older women and why"
that got everyone into a debate, and the lecturer was really anxious for an answer cause she was really curious on the guys' view on this.

she asked: "ladies, do you mind looking older than your husband?" and of course all the girls nodded. haha
so now it was the guys' turn. "do you mind your wife looking older than you?"
most of them stuttered, not knowing what to answer.

in the end, the lecturer asked a guy sitting at the corner, who was quiet throughout the session. she asked him, what his thought on the topic was.

he said: "it's really hard to answer. if you date an older girl but the maturity isn't there, or a younger girl who's too mature. I think if it's right, it's right. the age doesn't have to matter."

"but do you mind if your wife looks older than you?"

"... just because people grow old, doesn't mean you stop loving them. do you stop loving your mother just because she's older?"

oh my gosh, I swear an invisible tear fell down my eyes that day. that was the sweetest thing i have ever heard. just, beautiful. :')  

Thursday, 29 August 2013


1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?
*checks text message* umm no? hahaha she's practically a stranger xD
  • 2. You talked to an ex today, correct?
  • 3. Have you taken someones virginity?
  • noooooo
  • 4. Is trust a big issue for you?
  • yeap. kind of, in a way. i guess?
  • 5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?
  • uhh, you mean, like-like? HAHA cause I don't think so. Harry Styles is too busy for Malaysia >:(
  • 6. What are you excited for?
  • nothing, really. I'm excited for the nothing i will do later on
  • 7. What happened tonight?
  • hmmm nothing?
  • 8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?
  • depends on what they do when they're wasted. flashing and grinding are too much for me I guess? 
  • 9. Is confidence cute?
  • definitely
  • 10. What is the last beverage you had?
  • does yoghurt count? if no then I had Ying-Yang for lunch
  • 11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
  • not many. 
  • 12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
  • but skinny jeans are for skinny people >:( 
  • 13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?
  • study? HAHA pfft
  • 14. What are you going to spend money on next?
  • hmmmmmmmm most probably that spike sweater that I've been eyeing for quite a while but still haven't bought?????????????????????
  • 15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?
  • noooo
  • 16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?
  • can I be like, hot? 
  • 17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
  • mmmmm, I rarely talk about things though. 
  • 18. The last time you felt broken?
  • few days ago when I was having PMS lol 
  • 19. Have you had sex today?
  • with the yoghurt i just had, yes.
  • 20. Are you starting to realize anything?
  • that i'll probably end up not doing anything productive this whole afternoon? yeah I kinda knew that would happen. 
  • 21. Are you in a good mood?
  • so so :) 
  • 22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?
  • how about no 
  • 23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?
  • yeassss 
  • 24. What do you want right this second?
  • Harry Styles to tell me he loves me and that he's been searching for someone like me all his life. 
  • 25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?
  • i'm happy for you :') 
  • 26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?
  • nope
  • 27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?
  • if I can make him laugh then why not? :) 
  • 28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?
  • i forgot D: 
  • 29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?
  • maybe a little bit. 
  • 30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?
  • i believe so. 
  • 31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?
  • nahh
  • 32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?
  • i doubt Harry Styles saw my tweets to him. hahahahaha 
  • 33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?
  • ehhhhhh yeah
  • 34. Listening to?
  • Davichi - Because it's You. i'm in love with this song so very much 
  • 35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?
  • yessss
  • 36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?
  • noooo
  • 37. Do you believe in love at first sight?
  • yea i do. but only the one sided kind lol 
  • 38. Who did you last call?
  • katty
  • 39. Who was the last person you danced with?
  • idk :( 
  • 41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?
  • during a friend's birthday ? 
  • 42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?
  • no D: 
  • 43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?
  • i can't recall haha 
  • 44. Do you tan in the nude?
  • yees HAHA 
  • 45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?
  • nah
  • 46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?
  • no T_T
  • 47. Who was the last person to call you?
  • why does it matter!! 
  • 48. Do you sing in the shower?
  • all the time 
  • 49. Do you dance in the car?
  • all the freakin time HAHA 
  • 50. Ever used a bow and arrow?
  • yessss 
  • 51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
  • but i'm not photogenic :( 
  • 52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?
  • a bit la 
  • 53. Is Christmas stressful?
  • NO. GIFTS 
  • 54. Ever eat a pierogi?
  • what on earth is that 
  • 55. Favorite type of fruit pie?
  • apple :3 
  • 56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
  • Police. HAHAHHA *snorts
  • 57. Do you believe in ghosts?
  • demonic spirits, yes. but I also believe God will protect me from it all so all's good :) 
  • 58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
  • yessss! 
  • 59. Take a vitamin daily?
  • nope
  • 60. Wear slippers?
  • yes
  • 61. Wear a bath robe?
  • no
  • 62. What do you wear to bed?
  • my birthday suit. HAHA
  • 63. First concert?
  • school concert T.T 
  • 64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
  • E-mart? 
  • 65. Nike or Adidas?
  • Nike
  • 66. Cheetos Or Fritos?
  • Cheetos
  • 67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
  • Peanuts
  • 68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?
  • Everything Has Changed 
  • 69. Ever take dance lessons?
  • nope
  • 70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
  • umm, not really 
  • 71. Can you curl your tongue?
  • yea
  • 72. Ever won a spelling bee?
  • nope
  • 73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
  • yes hahaha
  • 74. What is your favorite book?
  • ummm rarely read 
  • 75. Do you study better with or without music?
  • depends. I think i study better when I want to study. with or without music is fine as long as my mind is set to study, no distraction can stop me 
  • 76. Regularly burn incense?
  • nope
  • 77. Ever been in love?
  • what really is love? 
  • 78. Who would you like to see in concert?
  • 1D please, or LAWSON ^_^
  • 79. What was the last concert you saw?
  • school concert!!!
  • 80. Hot tea or cold tea?
  • hot 
  • 81. Tea or coffee?
  • coffee
  • 82. Favorite type of cookie?
  • chocolate 
  • 83. Can you swim well?
  • yes
  • 84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
  • yes
  • 85. Are you patient?
  • no haha
  • 86. DJ or band, at a wedding?
  • band 
  • 87. Ever won a contest?
  • uhhh i think so? 
  • 88. Ever have plastic surgery?
  • nope
  • 89. Which are better black or green olives?
  • neither
  • 90. Opinions on sex before marriage?
  • against it 
  • 91. Best room for a fireplace?
  • living room 
  • 92. Do you want to get married?
  • if the opportunity rises i guess i'd say yes? hahaha

Tuesday, 27 August 2013


everybody has a dream
and one of mine is to be a fashion blogger. 
i wish i had lots of money so i can just buy buy buy haha all the clothes i see online. all the accessories, all the bags and all the shoes. :3 

then take ootd posts everyday and let people drool on how gorgeous my outfits are. bahaha
dreams are good. xD 

i think this is my only fashion blogger worthy post on instagram up to date. HAHA
after this outfit i am having trouble finding clothes to match these boots of mine -_- 

maybe i'll just resort to living with my cat. who rejected my embrace because his lover was around just now. pfftttttt !

well at least i have my blogshop! :B 
20% Discount on all sunnies. promotion lasts til 2nd September 2013! ^_^ 
link is at the side of my blog. gogo check it out 

Monday, 26 August 2013

5 o'clock in the morning

tell me this isn't the most beautiful thing you have ever read? mood swings and cravings have struck me, i feel all the emotions swirling in me, so much that I feel numb by it all. so i feel nothing. i'm supposed to submit a paper for my supervisor today. but i haven't even worked on it. and I don't even feel like working on it. everything just seems pointless. I want to sleep and never wake up is that okay? 

Saturday, 24 August 2013

anger management

whoever said sleeping on your anger makes you feel much better the next day is WRONG!! cause' it's the next day and I'm still angry!!!!!!

as a matter of fact, i'm really angry. idk why I'm so angry about it, it's such a small issue after all. i just have issues with people cutting my queue and people dissing us in public. fuckerssssssssssss

this was what went down. we were at Mcdonalds, oh so excited to try out the latest banana pie. so you know how people always separate, like a friend lines up in one line, and another friend in another, then whoever reaches first, the others would leave their lines and join their friend's. seriously, it's so common in McD NOBODY GETS ANGRY BECAUSE EVERYONE IS DOING IT.

so we did just that yesterday. and guess what happened. the guy behind us with his long face, told us off. his excuse? because we separated our order.

like what the actual fuck. WHAT THE FUCK
he said, if you separate your order it's just the same as cutting the queue. what?????? you don't make any fucking sense. so you're telling me, you're angry because we separated our order, which only causes idk, a few seconds of delay? crayyyy

just because you're an adult doesn't mean you're always right. just because you can't control your temper doesn't mean you should let it out on us and RUIN OUR LUNCH. so truly, from the bottom of my heart, fuck you. 

Saturday, 10 August 2013

what actually happened on my birthday

(it's almost a month past my birthday lol but better late than never right?)

ahh it's the most wonderful time of the year. lol no.
haha I dread my birthday every year. it's just something i tend to do. :\ 

anyways, before my birthday, it was dad's birthday. we had a simple dinner at the Chinese Restaurant in Dynasty. 

sweeter than pie parents awww
this was a candid shot 

with cutie bro 

me and dad. July babies 

family portrait. 

and when we got home it was time to sing!! idk why but I feel like i don't sing as well at home. :(

"get that thing away from me"

on the day itself 

new spike head gear for church xD 

gift from Jac. my brother hugging it ever so gently LOL! 

so all was good after church. I was still cheerful. but still I felt a little weird because I received SO LITTLE wishes!! :( 
like, usually after 12am you start to get all these birthday messages right? well I did receive some, but when I woke there was no more. 
somehow it affected me lolol cause some of my friends didn't even greet me. ughghg

so anyways, headed to Parkson with dad and bought him his belated present. 
and all that shopping (none for me btw) made me feel like crap. in my head i'm thinking, hey, it's my birthday. shouldn't i be the one buying things?? why aren't you asking me what i want? 

so yah watching my dad shop away kinda brought my mood down a little. which got me thinking about my friends not greeting me. in my mind i thought okay maybe they're still sleeping. then i saw them tweeting/instagramming and I was like WHAT. LOL okay.

and the thoughts just keep spinning in my head. and when dad brought me to choose my cake my tears fell WTF IN THE BAKERY SOMEMORE. i think i managed to hide it lah (I HOPE)

anyways, it was all good TIL I CRIED AGAIN ON THE WAY HOME. i was driving so i tried to hide my face from dad but he knew and he's like "why are you crying" -_- 
shit so embarassing so I just said nothing. 

okay ya can't see my face here but it was damn pissed off. HAHAHAHA
cause before dad took this picture my bro mocked me saying "so, where's your boyfriend?"
you know, in his condescending tone. =.=" 
that was the last straw for me. tears just fell down my eyes like waterfall WTF so I walked away to hide it but failed miserably. in the end we ended up shouting at each other WHILE EATING WTF MELO WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU. 

so yah it all went horribly wrong. my mum thought I was crying 'cause I expected a bigger celebration and she even apologized wtf 
I'm not that spoiled a brat so I told her it wasn't that. and it seemed silly at the time to say out that I was upset no one remembered my birthday so I blamed it on my brother for the bf joke. D: 

and at the time when I shouted at him, he shouted back at me saying that I was always harsh on him and that I don't love him. and he hid in his room since. omg. >:( 

ice cream cake! 
okay the birthday lunch seriously went horribly wrong and I was sobbing all the way while eating my lunch (ALL THANKS TO MY FRIENDS WTF I HOPE YOU ALL FEEL SORRY FOR YOURSELVES) 
but after it all I felt really bad for scolding my brother and somehow all the crying made me feel a whole lot better. haha but my eyes were swollen by then. but i did apologize to my brother. :} 

then it was night time. had a dinner date with Doreen, Chang, Joan and Ron. 
we had dinner at Surf and Turf 

need I add that I saw my soul mate there?? he was back in town and he happened to be dining next door omg *FATED* 

they were acting kinda weird. and at a point Ron actually said "where's George?" to Joan. so I was like O_O are they coming?? cause they told me they would celebrate with me the next day 'cause Katty was busy. so i was anticipating a little HAHA but no one showed up at the end of the dinner. T.T 
then at 10+ i think, Chang suddenly told me that she had to leave 'cause she had work the next day. I was shocked cos she doesn't usually leave this early but I was okay with it. (being such an understanding friend and all)

so Joan and Ron left with her. and it was just me and Doreen. then when we left, she asked if I wanted ice cream. I said sure. so we were on our way and she was texting the whole way. so I'm said, "why are you texting and driving??" 
she told me one of her friend is emo-ing and that she would stop at the petrol station to reply.

my reaction was : -_________________- 
and she really did stop at the petrol station. LOL 
in my mind i was seriously wtf-ing at the situation. 

then while driving, this Doreen told me that her tummy felt weird and she may need to use the toilet. (cause she had diarrhea few days back) 
so I said, okay you just drop me home and you go home and do your business. so she said okay. then when we reached my place she was like, "omg I can't hold it in anymore can I borrow your toilet??" 

(somehow it sounds suspicious now that i'm typing it but i swear it seemed normal when it happened) 
so of course I said yes. she even rushed into my house. and when I went in there was no sign of her. 
then when I walked into the dining area suddenly everyone just pop-ed out of nowhere. 


my mind went blank. I couldn't even see who was there. i think the first person I saw was Katty? then I felt confused cause she told me she was busy. then slowly I saw Chang, Joan, George, Sin Khiew. okay pretty much all my friends. and my youngest brother there. HAHAHAHA


feel so dumbfounded. 
damn these bitches 
I can't believe they let me think no one cared (FOR THE WHOLE DAY FYI I HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE FURIOUS) 
then all miraculously turn up in my house. 


maybe I should've been mad and give them a fright that day. muahaha
but all I did was..... cry. -_- 
motherfucking tear ducts 

then they showed me my cake.

and I cried even more.


okay so cute can. I was wishing for a minion cake and it came true. T.T 
so yah. but pictures of me cutting/blowing/making a wish are all hideous cause I was crying lmao fts 

all in all, it was a wonderful night for me. 
thank you so much to all my friends for pulling this off. y'all should be proud of yourself. HAHA
cause I never thought I'd be fooled but you guys managed to -.- 

so yes, a very big BIG thanks to everyone that night! I really appreciate everything that you guys did. haha <3 


just you know, letting you all know. haha

next day, had dinner with the boys from awhyo. :9 

feel so loved that they celebrated for me. awww hahaha :D 
thanks guys!! 

and guess where we went after that???? 
Daryl Soon's favorite pastime of course 

(but i think i better not post photo or reveal anything cause apparently it is banned in Malaysia? don't wanna get myself in prison yo HAHA) 

yay. that is all from me.
i love my family, i love my friends. 
but seriously, no more surprises okay. 

my parents still think i'm upset because I don't have a boyfriend. wtf
screw you all for that.