Tuesday, 29 May 2012

will you love me even in my dark side?

finals in a week and i'm still not in my study mood yet! but all is well, let's take things slow this time. :D

kinda happy cause I actually did quite well in one of my subs. hehe. *proud face*

and dad's back from Philippines!
he got me a wallet just like I requested. and some 'I <3 BOHOL' wristbands in neon colors. loves loves! actually the other 3 are for my brothers but I just assumed they're too 'macho' to wear them thus claiming them all for myself. *snorts*

and i'm really excited for this year end. am starting my internship, then spending Christmas in Philippines with my cousins!

also, if all goes well, I might actually go to Perth for my final year. got all hyped up discussing it with my friends just now. imagine a whole new environment, cooking, skyping home all those things I've never experienced before. and the nice sweaters I get to buy to wear during winter. :P and TOMS!! I've always longed for a pair of Toms ever since I saw them on tumblr. UGHGH

so that's all for my updates. am gonna focus on the positives from now on, and make this blog a better place. :)

Saturday, 26 May 2012

so kiss me goodbye, I can see the venom in your eyes

I've found a friend whom I can share my feelings with. she's a blessing. so many things that i'm slowly finding out, all of which I really don't want to know. I like being in control. I don't like how things are going lately, where no one is afraid of me, and they all take me for granted. I want to matter so much that people would stop doing what they're doing so that it won't hurt me! but that's too much to ask from you now, is it?

so many thoughts in my head, conversations with you that I've replayed over and over again in my head, things I wish I'd say and things you would reply in return. tear drop after tear drop fell from these scenarios I made up. I don't even know what it is anymore. I'm too afraid to confront, to face the truth. I fear i'm slowly becoming bipolar - one second I care too much, then the next.. I don't care at all.

if you're wondering why the new blog? it's because Blogger told me I've reached my photo quota and I have to pay to upload more? -,- screw it, i'm not gonna upload photos anymore.