Friday, 24 April 2015

comfortable silence

“At first we had so much to catch up on we were talking a hundred words a second, barely even listening to the ends of one another's sentences before moving onto the next. And there was laughing. Lots of laughing. Then the laughing stopped and there was this silence. What the hell was it?

It was like the world stopped turning in that instant. Like everyone around us had disappeared. Like everything at home was forgotten about. It was as if those few minutes on this world were created just for us and all we could do was look at each other. It was like he was seeing my face for the first time. He looked confused but kind of amused. Exactly how I felt. Because I was sitting on the grass with my best friend Alex, and that was my best friend Alex's face and nose and eyes and lips, but they seemed different. So I kissed him. I seized the moment and I kissed him,”

― Cecelia Ahern, Love, Rosie

Friday, 17 April 2015

i don't know if i can truly be happy

Sunday, 5 April 2015

idk anymore

idk anymore. i look at my life, i have so much to be thankful for but i'm sad, i'm crying, and i refuse to feel anything else. the death of my cat has taken it's toll on me. sometimes i think about it and i just go blank. my mind goes blank in denial of it all. i refuse to believe. and it's been over a month. 

i am so sad. i just want all my feelings to be taken away from me. i want to sing my heart out, but it's hard. can people accept the fact that you're sad 24/7? will they think i'm a freak? 

i don't want to be the one that brings down everyone's mood. can someone please take me back to the good old days?