Saturday, 23 February 2013

it's so foolish how you keep me wanting more

school is starting in a week! A WEEK. *cries*
i've an industrial report due when school starts and i haven't touched it since internship ended fml. plus i've been living life as illustrated by the gif above. lol

i'd wake up feeling like doing nothing, so i just fall back to sleep and wake up noon time. that's when i continue doing nothing. sweet sweet nothing. T_T

Tuesday, 19 February 2013


Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.

Nobody's Home - Avril Lavigne 

Thursday, 14 February 2013

a confession

i'm not sure whether this post will end up published or halfway written, but here goes..

i turn 22 this year, and i've yet to find someone i can be comfortable with. someone who can turn my bad days around, listen to my complaints and tell me they love me. someone who actually acknowledges my existence. it's kinda depressing actually. i don't even know HOW to love someone. and honestly i don't think i ever will.

so yeah. this is my confession, on Valentine's Day.
i don't know how to love, how it feels to be loved. i still haven't found someone who makes my insides spiral that actually feels the same way for me, and someone i can love and commit to forever. in all honesty, i don't think i'll ever find someone, and the thought scares the shit out of me. 

Thursday, 7 February 2013

weed be good together

thank you tumblr, for all the times you made me feel that i'm not alone.


on the other hand, i've been keeping myself busy with bracelet making lately. haven't updated them on my bracelet blog, but i will soon! i hope. check out my bracelet blog yo :D


Wednesday, 6 February 2013


sunset at PBC last Sunday. it was beautiful. pictures do no justice to it, i swear. sometimes, at moments like this, only the eye is the best camera. too bad we can't print it out for people to see. we can only view it in our minds until slowly it fades from our memory.

isn't it soothing watching the waves hit the shore? haha i can stare at this gif forever.

i can stare at you forever too. but i think i'm slowly letting this.. infatuation go. i mean, it'll never happen right? no matter how much i want it to. i'm not a little girl anymore, staring from afar and hoping you see me just doesn't cut it anymore. you're old, you're going to settle with someone soon, or maybe you already have. and if i don't let this go i don't think i can manage myself seeing you with someone else. haha. you're not even mine to begin with and yet i act like it's my business. bah. i wish you a nice life. and me myself too. and if wishes really do come true, then i'd still spend mine on you.

 you are my wish, okay.