irredeemable

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable.”

—	C.S. Lewis, “The Four Loves” (via misswallflower)

welcome to new york

define adulthood? when exactly are you a legit adult?

i think one distinct sign you're turning 'adult', is when oil price starts to have an effect on you.

when we were young, we didn't have to worry about things like this. we needn't worry about details. everything is provided - food, shampoo, etc

but now? now that I'm officially an adult, I actually worry when fuel price rises. why? simple. because it burns a hole in my pocket every time i fill my car. it even makes me reluctant to travel, watching the fuel level drop. *ouch* it's just too much to bear, especially at the end of the month. (true story bruh)

okay anyways, I came back from holiday just recently and went to fill my car with fuel. to my surprise, the oil price is much cheaper! it went down while we were away. :O
i was happy at first, excited at my savings. i don't even mind travelling the extra mile now.

sadly like everything else, happiness is temporary. guess which adult isn't too please with the fuel price going down anymore? me. me me me

the drop in fuel price worldwide means drop in economy. which also means oil companies are losing money, which indirectly is saying that they won't spend so much. which leads to budget cuts, retrenchments, and adults (me) ranting pointlessly on their blogs as if it'll in any way help bring up the economy or the currency.

if you don't understand the crap i just wrote on my blog, then you're too young. you're probably still a teenager living life recklessly and spending your parents money on lame ass shit like Maple MOL points or Dota 2 stuff or branded shit, depends on what your preference is really.

you know what? do not stop. continue, be reckless, spend excessively (but don't cause your parents to go bankrupt lah of course BE SENSIBLE seriously), do stupid shit. because you're young!! do not ever try to be adult when you're still so young, you have the rest of your life to be adult and the worst part is there's no turning back.



i'm not saying that being an adult sucks, sure the freedom is good, the money is good, but there's just too much to worry about suddenly and i'm not so sure if i'm coping well lel

it's like i want to buy everything i (feel i) deserve, but at the same time i can't spend too recklessly as before because what if suddenly I need a huge sum of money for something?? I can't go running to my parents for allowance anymore, i'm earning my own money! to think i used to be so broke as a teenager. haha good times, good times.



so hello, adulthood.
i
am
in
you


and i intend to embrace you
                               (please embrace me back)