hi, i just got home from Coffee Bean. it was assignment night.
halfway through, i received a text message from mum saying that my dog - Raven is sick, probably from the rain the past few days. mum also mentioned that she tried petting my dog and she let her, but suddenly bit my mum.
so i went home, and surely i noticed something wrong with my dog. when i opened her cage, instead of running out of the cage like a mad lady and jumping onto me and licking me at the same time, she just stood up slowly, and walked out of the cage. :(
so i brought her food and her water to the porch, so she could maybe eat during the night. and i tried petting her, she did lick me. but surely as mum said, she suddenly got angry and bit me. :( so i held back a little, not knowing what to do. tears immediately filled my eyes as i think back on the times i've neglected her. all the times I spent with my cat instead of my dog. and i just feel so so so bad. as I stood on my porch with tears in my eyes, all I could do was look at my dog, she was looking at me too. with a sad look on her face, but she wouldn't come to me. I don't know what happened, or what's going through her mind. and I sure as hell didn't know what to do about it.
in my mind all I could think about was how bad I feel about how I treated my dog. how i've taken her for granted yet she still comes to me every single time. no hate, no grudge, just pure love. and I had the nerve to feel annoyed 'cause she'd jump onto me and dirty my clothes. just thinking of my actions makes me sad. I feel like such a bad owner for neglecting my dog like that.
and all this just pisses me off.
why do we only know how to regret once something is taken away from us?
why do we only appreciate something once it's gone?
why do we take for granted all the little things in life, then when you realize you may never have it again, only then you realize these little things worth more than what you viewed so highly.
all this is useless anyways. no matter how sorry I feel, it won't change the way I treated my dog. I just hope she gets better soon so I can make it up to her...
halfway through, i received a text message from mum saying that my dog - Raven is sick, probably from the rain the past few days. mum also mentioned that she tried petting my dog and she let her, but suddenly bit my mum.
so i went home, and surely i noticed something wrong with my dog. when i opened her cage, instead of running out of the cage like a mad lady and jumping onto me and licking me at the same time, she just stood up slowly, and walked out of the cage. :(
so i brought her food and her water to the porch, so she could maybe eat during the night. and i tried petting her, she did lick me. but surely as mum said, she suddenly got angry and bit me. :( so i held back a little, not knowing what to do. tears immediately filled my eyes as i think back on the times i've neglected her. all the times I spent with my cat instead of my dog. and i just feel so so so bad. as I stood on my porch with tears in my eyes, all I could do was look at my dog, she was looking at me too. with a sad look on her face, but she wouldn't come to me. I don't know what happened, or what's going through her mind. and I sure as hell didn't know what to do about it.
in my mind all I could think about was how bad I feel about how I treated my dog. how i've taken her for granted yet she still comes to me every single time. no hate, no grudge, just pure love. and I had the nerve to feel annoyed 'cause she'd jump onto me and dirty my clothes. just thinking of my actions makes me sad. I feel like such a bad owner for neglecting my dog like that.
and all this just pisses me off.
why do we only know how to regret once something is taken away from us?
why do we only appreciate something once it's gone?
why do we take for granted all the little things in life, then when you realize you may never have it again, only then you realize these little things worth more than what you viewed so highly.
all this is useless anyways. no matter how sorry I feel, it won't change the way I treated my dog. I just hope she gets better soon so I can make it up to her...
