39. You fucked me up, did you know that?

26. You told me to cut toxic people out of my life. I don’t want to cut you loose, but it seems like you’ve made that decision for me. I don’t see you anymore.

29. I don’t want you to ruin me.

11. I was perfectly fine with destroying myself in a way that eventually killed me, until you asked me to try and you fucking asked me to stop.

13. I’ve gotten bad again and I’m too scared to ask for help.

22. Maybe I hurt myself holding onto you.

38. I’ve never met anyone who could easily make me wanna die.


xxxxx


is it just me but i love the feeling i get when i read something as sad as this. i love how it tears deep into my being, i feel like something is clawing at my chest and sort of pictured my insides spilling out. but here i am, perfectly fine physically. nothing seems wrong, nothing out of place.

and i don't know what's wrong with me. because sad things, sadness, makes me so happy.