reading back on my old posts, seeing how depressed i was half a year ago, I felt nothing about it. part of me wants to feel that sad again, at least it'll hurt and i'll learn my lesson and move on, or something. but no. there are things that disappoint me that happen but i feel nothing. i do still listen to sad songs but they don't impact me as much as they did back then. have i totally shut off my emotions? idk.
i want to feel sad, to be honest.
i want to feel the pain in my chest, i want to cry so hard i can't breathe.
i want to feel the sorrow of us not ever being together, and have that sadness carved into my being, so that every time i feel sad, i'm reminded of you.
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