what actually happened on my birthday

(it's almost a month past my birthday lol but better late than never right?)

ahh it's the most wonderful time of the year. lol no.

haha I dread my birthday every year. it's just something i tend to do. :\ 

anyways, before my birthday, it was dad's birthday. we had a simple dinner at the Chinese Restaurant in Dynasty. 

sweeter than pie parents awww

this was a candid shot 

with cutie bro 

me and dad. July babies 

family portrait. 

and when we got home it was time to sing!! idk why but I feel like i don't sing as well at home. :(

"get that thing away from me"

xxx

on the day itself 

new spike head gear for church xD 

gift from Jac. my brother hugging it ever so gently LOL! 

so all was good after church. I was still cheerful. but still I felt a little weird because I received SO LITTLE wishes!! :( 

like, usually after 12am you start to get all these birthday messages right? well I did receive some, but when I woke there was no more. 

somehow it affected me lolol cause some of my friends didn't even greet me. ughghg

so anyways, headed to Parkson with dad and bought him his belated present. 

and all that shopping (none for me btw) made me feel like crap. in my head i'm thinking, hey, it's my birthday. shouldn't i be the one buying things?? why aren't you asking me what i want? 

so yah watching my dad shop away kinda brought my mood down a little. which got me thinking about my friends not greeting me. in my mind i thought okay maybe they're still sleeping. then i saw them tweeting/instagramming and I was like WHAT. LOL okay.

and the thoughts just keep spinning in my head. and when dad brought me to choose my cake my tears fell WTF IN THE BAKERY SOMEMORE. i think i managed to hide it lah (I HOPE)

anyways, it was all good TIL I CRIED AGAIN ON THE WAY HOME. i was driving so i tried to hide my face from dad but he knew and he's like "why are you crying" -_- 

shit so embarassing so I just said nothing. 

okay ya can't see my face here but it was damn pissed off. HAHAHAHA

cause before dad took this picture my bro mocked me saying "so, where's your boyfriend?"

you know, in his condescending tone. =.=" 

that was the last straw for me. tears just fell down my eyes like waterfall WTF so I walked away to hide it but failed miserably. in the end we ended up shouting at each other WHILE EATING WTF MELO WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU. 

so yah it all went horribly wrong. my mum thought I was crying 'cause I expected a bigger celebration and she even apologized wtf 

I'm not that spoiled a brat so I told her it wasn't that. and it seemed silly at the time to say out that I was upset no one remembered my birthday so I blamed it on my brother for the bf joke. D: 

and at the time when I shouted at him, he shouted back at me saying that I was always harsh on him and that I don't love him. and he hid in his room since. omg. >:( 

ice cream cake! 

okay the birthday lunch seriously went horribly wrong and I was sobbing all the way while eating my lunch (ALL THANKS TO MY FRIENDS WTF I HOPE YOU ALL FEEL SORRY FOR YOURSELVES) 

but after it all I felt really bad for scolding my brother and somehow all the crying made me feel a whole lot better. haha but my eyes were swollen by then. but i did apologize to my brother. :} 

then it was night time. had a dinner date with Doreen, Chang, Joan and Ron. 

we had dinner at Surf and Turf 

need I add that I saw my soul mate there?? he was back in town and he happened to be dining next door omg *FATED* 

they were acting kinda weird. and at a point Ron actually said "where's George?" to Joan. so I was like O_O are they coming?? cause they told me they would celebrate with me the next day 'cause Katty was busy. so i was anticipating a little HAHA but no one showed up at the end of the dinner. T.T 

then at 10+ i think, Chang suddenly told me that she had to leave 'cause she had work the next day. I was shocked cos she doesn't usually leave this early but I was okay with it. (being such an understanding friend and all)

so Joan and Ron left with her. and it was just me and Doreen. then when we left, she asked if I wanted ice cream. I said sure. so we were on our way and she was texting the whole way. so I'm said, "why are you texting and driving??" 

she told me one of her friend is emo-ing and that she would stop at the petrol station to reply.

my reaction was : -_________________- 

and she really did stop at the petrol station. LOL 

in my mind i was seriously wtf-ing at the situation. 

then while driving, this Doreen told me that her tummy felt weird and she may need to use the toilet. (cause she had diarrhea few days back) 

so I said, okay you just drop me home and you go home and do your business. so she said okay. then when we reached my place she was like, "omg I can't hold it in anymore can I borrow your toilet??" 

-_- 

(somehow it sounds suspicious now that i'm typing it but i swear it seemed normal when it happened) 

so of course I said yes. she even rushed into my house. and when I went in there was no sign of her. 

then when I walked into the dining area suddenly everyone just pop-ed out of nowhere. 

"SURPRISE!!!!" 

my mind went blank. I couldn't even see who was there. i think the first person I saw was Katty? then I felt confused cause she told me she was busy. then slowly I saw Chang, Joan, George, Sin Khiew. okay pretty much all my friends. and my youngest brother there. HAHAHAHA

SHIT. 

feel so dumbfounded. 

damn these bitches 

I can't believe they let me think no one cared (FOR THE WHOLE DAY FYI I HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE FURIOUS) 

then all miraculously turn up in my house. 

seriously. 

seriously???? 

maybe I should've been mad and give them a fright that day. muahaha

but all I did was..... cry. -_- 

motherfucking tear ducts 

then they showed me my cake.

and I cried even more.

HAHAHAHAHAHA

okay so cute can. I was wishing for a minion cake and it came true. T.T 

so yah. but pictures of me cutting/blowing/making a wish are all hideous cause I was crying lmao fts 

all in all, it was a wonderful night for me. 

thank you so much to all my friends for pulling this off. y'all should be proud of yourself. HAHA

cause I never thought I'd be fooled but you guys managed to -.- 

so yes, a very big BIG thanks to everyone that night! I really appreciate everything that you guys did. haha <3 

SEE THIS WAS HOW SWOLLEN MY EYES WERE OKAY. 

just you know, letting you all know. haha

xxx

next day, had dinner with the boys from awhyo. :9 

feel so loved that they celebrated for me. awww hahaha :D 

thanks guys!! 

and guess where we went after that???? 

Daryl Soon's favorite pastime of course 

(but i think i better not post photo or reveal anything cause apparently it is banned in Malaysia? don't wanna get myself in prison yo HAHA) 

yay. that is all from me.

i love my family, i love my friends. 

but seriously, no more surprises okay. 

my parents still think i'm upset because I don't have a boyfriend. wtf

screw you all for that. 

Despicable Me

hellooooo~ hahaha
life's been great lately. so far so good, i guess?

 maybe except the fact that I received a saman yesterday after having that cheesy delight from Ma Baker!!?? it's not my fault they provide so little parking spaces!!!!! =.= *still pissed*

moving forward~

we watched Despicable Me 2 last night!! IT WAS AWESOMEEEEEE

I wanted to scream in the cinema HAHAHA cause it was so damn funny. sigh

I want a minion too. a living breathing one who does all my evil deeds for me and I would feed him ice cream and he'd go 'gelato gelato gelato' hahahaha. 

aawwwww

and I also want a daughter as cute as Agnes and I want her never to grow up!! :> 

sounds like a nice life plan to me :B

so last night after movie we proceeded to L4D with George, Tracy, Sheun and her bf. hahaha playing versus was awesome even though my team lost!!! hahahaha 

xxx

throwback to last Saturday (which was just as awesome) 

sit in for the Glass Bubbles as their keyboardist was outstation. :) 

it was a new experience for me, honestly didn't know what I was doing half of the time but the guys were really friendly and nice. I sincerely hope i didn't bring down their performance? :\ 

hehe 

an awesome experience nevertheless. thank you! :D 

after party at Al Fresco! haha

cause we wanted to feast our eyes on George's brother who's back from China. He lost so much weight!! :O 

we headed over to Celebs after cause his brother was there but alas we couldn't find him! haha sad sad. :( 

guess who got drunk that night. 

yea you guessed right. hahahaha XD 

and to end this post, my cat!! hahaha who's so fat now cause he asks to be fed like, every hour?? =.= 

look at the size of that thingggg compared to my leg somemore. 

fat cat fat cat hahaha

and look how awesome my post night out skin is. HAHA

I had 2 hours sleep only too that night cause I brought my cat in and he woke me at 6am to eat =.=" 

I slept at 4!! SO YEAH. 

I guess that's all? haha don't you just love holidays? hehehehe :) 

new sunnies that just came in for the blog shop. :B 

can't decide which to get for myself. ahaha xD 

click here to visit my blog shop page!! :D 

bye bye bye 

May June July

sorry I just needed this awesome thang on my blog :B 

happiness is temporary

posting this picture cause I look really happy

everything is temporary, everything fades away

since nothing lasts forever

how about I be nothing

nothing at all to you

i love my new bag :)

so i bought a bag. bahahahaha!! so freakin' happy with it. the longer I stare at it the more i love it! :) 

happy buy muahaha <3 

so finally it's school break! one month of holidays, honestly i don't know what i'm gonna do. haha stay at home and rot? :p 

anyways, finally quitting the tuition job. it kinda made me miserable cause the kids are so disrespectful and I can't for the life of me, teach. I love spending my nights at home and i'm glad i can.. soon. :] 

so we went to watch Man of Steel last night. it was draggy, but Superman's gorgeous face made it worthwhile. hahaha

sorry, not a Channing Tattum fan. but this is the only life size poster for me to camwhore with! HAHA

omg. was laughing like mad when taking this pic. hands couldn't stop shaking from laughing so hard.

hahahaha

 

lovely day with the bunch!

and just this afternoon, Doreen and I watched Now You See Me! 

IT WAS AWESOMEEEEEEE!! HAHAHAHA

I was.. in awe. it was just

perfect

even better than Superman. *gasp* 

but yeah, not exaggerating. if you haven't watched it, go!! 

and since i'm in a movie frenzie, might as well add here that I downloaded a movie, called Something Borrowed. saw the advertisement on Star World. 

sounds like a nice movie I really can't wait to watch it and maybe (maybe) blog about it! :D 

only because I feel i'm like the pity girl who lost her guy HAHA and afraid that this will happen to me in real life in the future omg. huhu T_T

til then~ 

bye

nothing is less

have you ever felt so alone when all you needed was a pat in the back telling you that you can do it? i think it's weird how sometimes we seek comfort from strangers because it is so much easier to pour out all that is bothering you to them because they don't know you therefore they cannot judge you. but thing is, i don't even have a stranger to talk to. all the pain and fear i feel i just push them down when it seems overwhelming. and sometimes, i just don't know what to do anymore. do i give up? or do i go on? is it pointless to carry on? or would things be better if I just held on a little longer? 

life

sometimes, there are things in life that happen and you don't understand why they do.
why do people do what they do?

so i think sometimes, it's better to just forget about it. let go and move on with life. cause I would much rather enjoy life than spend my time being sad over petty things. so yeah, I really do feel indifferent about it all. which is a really good thing, and i'm proud of myself.

Fr. Andy's homily last Sunday touched me and changed me.
he told us not to be sad over loved ones who passed away. instead, rejoice in the fact that they're on their way to meet our Heavenly Father. think of death as a 'see you soon', instead of a parting.

as I sat quietly in church that morning, I looked around to see the people's reactions to his words. I wonder whether they agree with what he's saying. for me, i'm terrified of death. the thought of it brings me to tears. the thought of ever having to lose either one of my parents, my friends, my siblings, and myself? it's just too much to bear. I don't know how I would die, it isn't a very pleasant thing to be thinking about either. but as I sat there listening to his words, I felt enlightened. all of a sudden, death doesn't seem like a scary thing anymore. it's always better to let go rather than to hold onto something that is already gone. do not dwell on things that make you unhappy, but rather focus on what makes you happy, and be happy.

:)